In loving memory of Rara....

When everythings end....
2008 ends....
ends my bestfriend life.....
everything ends.....
there is no more Rara.....
my oldest....
truest bestfriend....
n....
the bestfriend i've never appreciate.....
the bestfriend i've killed....

wanna know what happen????
well....
Rara is my bestfriend since i was little....
our friendship is strong.....
until one day she have a bf.....
n i start school at SMK BTHO2.....
at first everything was doing smooth....
but one day....
i can't stand it anymore....
she always choosing her bf....
then me.....
so i was so fed up....
so i stood up 2 her....
n then she said.....
u're the one who dosen't care about me....
u always busy with ur new friends n that cable guy.....
u always put me at the second place....
n i was so furious that time....
i said something i shouldn't say....
i said....
i hate u....
n i never want 2 see ur face ever again....
that is the last thing i've said b-4 she's died....
n when i wanted 2 say srry....
n give her Mirotic Album.....
that my cousin from korea buy it 4 me....
i got the news....
that she killed her self....
the last thing she said b-4 she died....
is she wanted 2 see me again....
but i wasn't there.....

i miss her so much rite now....
i miss the time we go 2 the mall....
n shop till we'll drop.....
or....
help Aunty Lisa at her restaurant....
n when we meet somebody we don't like.....
we put extra salt in their food....
or....
when we watch Purple Line MV....
n laugh out loud cause....
we thought U-know was a girl when he rap....

i miss the time when....
she make the most big birthday party every year 4 my bufday....
n she will give me a big present.....
i miss the time when....
we dance 2 the Nobody song from Wonder Girls....
i miss the time when....
we cry in the middle of the nite....
watching Korean Drama.....
i miss the time when....
we have a stupid fantasy about....
marrying one of the TVXQ members....
i miss every little thing about us....
i miss her.....
n i was the reason she killed herself....
i hate myself....
i hate myself....

School is going 2 start..... NO!!!!

School is starting!!!!
I HATE SCHOOL!!!!
u wanna know y????
b-coz there's a lots of bitch n suck people in my school.....
urgh!!!!
how can i survive next year????
all of my enemy is the same session as me.....
damn!!!!
I HATE SCHOOL!!!!
but i still got 2 go 2 school.....
still got 2 learn 4 PMR next year.....
my life is getting sucker every day.....
wish there's someone will make me happy next year....
n will always make me happy the rest of my life.....
i wish cable guy is beside me.....
i wish i've never known people that always hurt me rite now.....
wish I can get in one class as Miera.....
wish my life gets better.....
well.....
i have 2 look forward 2 my unclear future....
n never look back at my horrible plus sweet past....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!
TVXQ ROCKS!!!!

Korean fever at my house....

hahaha!!!!
korean fever tgh melanda kluarga aku.....
hahaha!!!!
satu kluarga minat korea dkt umah aku.....
especially TVXQ.....
they r the most lovable among all of korean stars.....
even my grandma know them.....
she can even sing the wrong number song.....
hahaha!!!!
this is all my work.....
i'm the one who make them like korean.....
TVXQ should thanks me.....
cause i just make them more popular.....
popular even 2 granny.....
well.....
i am in love with korean stars.....
TVXQ.....
SMASH....
SHINee
SS501.....
Big Bang.....
Super Junior.....
2pm.....
Wonder Girls.....
Brown Eyed Girls....
Kara.....
Seeya.....
SNSD.....
BoA.....
Bi Rain.....
Lee Hyori.....
Beak Ji Young.....
Lee Soo Young.....
owh i love them all.....
well.....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!

The story of a girl....

this is the story of a girl....
a girl who always cheerful....
n always a step forward then every one else.....
she always think about her future.....
n she already had a plan for her future....
but now....
everything change......
all of her plan.....
is ruin.....
because.....
she fell in love.....
and she started 2 think.....
she's not good enough.....
she's not good in giving advice 2 people.....
she's not so good at her studies.....
she's not a good leader as she was before.....
she's not a good writer as people say she was.....
she's not even a better person then her enemy.....
her life....
is not as she plan 3 years ago.....
she lost everything....
her bestfriend.....
her family....
her one and only love.....
her future.....
everything.....
now.....
she's sitting in front of her computer.....
writing in her blog.....
about her disaster life.....
tears keep falling....
and no one is listening 2 her yearning.....
one thing that she had now is.....
nothing.....
her future seems 2 be so dark and unclear.....
what will happen next????
is she will survive this painful life????
or will she give up in her life.....
n end up killing her self????
what ever will happen next.....
she's ready for it.....
she just hope.....
everybody else ready 4 it.....

Now I know.....

everybody is so nice 2 me 2day....
now i know why.....
they want me 2 baby sit that lil devil.....
urgh!!!!
last time i baby sit that devil.....
i end up having mud all over my body.....
locked out of the house.....
n have 2 wait 4 my parents come home in the rain.....
that lil devil is such a pain in the back.....
but he has the most cutest brother in the whole world.....
if i have a good luck.....
maybe.....
that lil devil will act nicely.....
n his bro will fall 4 me.....
n we live happily ever after.....
or the vice verse.....
everyone will end up coming 2 my funeral....
b-coz that lil devil kills me.....
well.....
i have 2 baby sit that devil 2morrow.....
if i die.....
i just want 2 say.....
i love everybody.....
diya.....
n miera.....
u're guys r the best......
may gc live 4 ever.....
TVXQ is still the best.....
kenang daku dlm doamu.....
dramatic nyer.....
mcm nk mati btul2 lak.....
hahaha!!!!

well.....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!

Once a bitch..... always a bitch.....

i ni aku mengamuk gler tahap babun!!!!
aku mengamuk mcm singa kelaparan....
urgh!!!!
that *****
dia ske apa yg aku ske....
sumer yg aku ske.....
sumer dia nk.....
apa lg yg dia x puas hati ngan aku????
eh....
dia dh dpt an apa yg dia nk.....
tp masih nk kacau hdp aku.....
fine!!!!
klu perang yg dia nk.....
perang yg akan dia dpt.....
ini qistinalah.....
bkn calang.....
calang org.....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!

The begining of another painful life....

i got a baby brother 2day!!!!
yey!!!!
this mean another painful life is going 2 start....
sucks!!!!
i hate my life....
i hate it....
i know i should be happy b-coz i have a new baby brother....
but....
when he comes 2 my life....
everyone will pay attention 2 him....
n what i want....
what i need....
dosen't metter anymore....
no one will care about me....
and what my parents will say....
she's a big girl now....
we have 2 take care of the baby....
yes i'm a big girl....
but i still have feelings....
n u know what....
i hate everything in my life....
b-coz my life is sucks....
the only thing is not sucks in my life....
is my friends....
they r the only one that care about me....
i guess....
well....
i have 2 be strong.....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!

Hahaha!!!! Qys gler + bodoh.....

Qys bodoh & glerkn????
aku tahu....
aku rs cam dh nk ilang akal....
stress seh....
aku tgh pikir psl masa depan....
masa depan yg blm aku dpt tentukan....
argh!!!!
apa impian aku????
aku sendiri pun x tau....
bodoh x aku ni....
nenek aku nk aku jadi pilot....
atuk aku lak nk aku jd doctor....
arwah nenek belah mama nk aku jd nurse....
kwn-kwn ckp aku lebih baik jd penulis....
papa suruh aku kejar impian aku....
argh!!!!
i don't know where 2 go....
what's the right thing....
i want my own dreams....
n for the i'm gonna scream!!!!
apa yg Norqistina Akmar nk sbnrnya????
aku rs aku nk jd interial designer....
and in oder 2 do that....
i have 2 change school....
sbb skolah aku xder mata pljrn utk designer.....
tp aku xnk pisah dgn kwn2 aku....
n klu aku jd interial designer....
aku akan hampakan harapan banyak org....
aku xnk buat org hampa....
argh!!!!
damn!!!!
life is getting sucker....
but well....
i choose this kind of life....
so i have 2 live it no metter what happen....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!

Happy or sad????

2day....
i got to know what my class for 2009....
i got class inovatif....
the class that a lot people hate this year....
should i be sad or happy????
the reason for my sadness....
b-coz miera is not in the same class as me....
there is no ayam....
that can cheer me up when i'm sad....
i'm not in the same class of any of my past class mate....
there's a lot of reason why i should be sad....
reason for me to be happy....
because i'm not in the same class with dugong....
and because i've got a class that higher then my old class....
i think i'm sad....
so sad....
its better if i stay at my old class....
i don't think i want to separate from my friends....
argh!!!!
life sucks!!!!
well....
live must go on....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!

Sakitnya.....

hish....
bgn pagi2 jer....
sumernya sakit....
sakit tekak....
sakit kepala....
sakit ati.....
pg2 agi adik-adik aku dh wat hal....
hish!!!! cilanat tul!!!!
dh aku demam ni....
hish.....
smlm....
chah bg tau aku dia dh tau result klas thn depan.....
adynn turun klas agi....
aku nk ckp pe pun x tau.....
minah tu aku leh fahamlah.....
2 sub dia x lulus....
adynn ni plak....
hish....
turun klas....
dahlah dia anak ckg....
aku x tau pe aku nk ckp.....
aku takut aku turun klas gak....
argh!!!!
tidak....
harap2 aku sama klas ngan miera....
nk sama klas ngan diya tp diakn pndi....
impossible aku dpt datu klas ngan diya blik....
well....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!

Lelaki....

hari ni....
aku dgr mslh....
mslh mak sdara aku ngan husband dier.....
lelaki ni mmg gatal....
dh ada bini n 4 org anak pun....
masih gatal....
hish!!!!
x tau ah nk ckp pe....
aku rs takut lak nk ada bf n percayakan lelaki....
trutama skali....
lelaki melayu....
hopeless....
hish!!!!
susah tul hdp ni....
single is better....
but i can't stay single 4 ever....
just wish i found the right guy....
well....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!

LOL....

hari ni aku asyik gelak jer....
tgk TVXQ lah....
klakar tul....
pastu dgr adik aku gelak....
mcm pontianak....
terbahak-bahak aku gelak....
klu si ayam dgr aku gelak....
mesti dier ngumpat aku....
hahaha!!!!

xder pape yg jd ari ni....
tgk tv....
surfe the internet....
tu jer ah yg aku buat....
boring plak cuti ni rsnya....
hmm....
cpt2 ah start skolah....
aku dh rindu sgt kwn2 aku....
miss my friends so much....
hmm....
well....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!
TVXQ STILL THE BEST N 4EVER WILL BE!!!!

Gambar raya smlm....

nilah gambar2 raya smlm....
hehehe....
best gler raya smlm....
mcm raya aidilfitri lak....
dan sprti biasa....
smlm mrupakan hari aku mengumpat org....
biasalah aku ni mmg....
hahaha!!!!
well....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!
TVXQ THE BEST BOY BAND EVER!!!!

Sehari sblm raya korban....

busy.....
busy.....
busy.....
sibuk masak....
kemas rumah....
dan of coz....
tidur......
sbnrnya....
aku sibuk goyang kaki jer....
hahaha!!!!
biasalah....
aku ni mmg camni....

hmm....
knp an....
stiap kali raya....
mesti ada rendang, lodeh n ketupat????
plik ah....
n boring....
balik2 mkn makanan yg sama....
hish!!!!
knp bler raya....
kita x mkn pizza ker....
spagetti ker.....
burger ker....
brulah baek punya....
blik2 mkn makanan yg sama....
x boring ker....
hish!!!!

aku ni membebel plak....
hehehe....
ok....
well....
TVXQ THE BEST!!!!
LOVE YUNHO n MICKY SO DAMN MUCH!!!!
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!

Hari ini dan smlm....

URGH!!!!
huhhhh....
jom aku cter kat korang pe yg jd smlm....
aku tlh dipaksa oleh mama aku utk membersihkan almari aku....
terpaksalah aku kemas....
kemas punya kemas....
mcm2 aku jumpa....
surat2....
gambar....
brg2 perhiasan aku yg dh lme hilang....
mcm2 ah....
banyak btul baju2 aku ni....
yg x prnh aku pakai pun ada....
hampir 65% baju2 aku....
aku x prnh pakai....
isyk3....
aku ni mmg camni....
bli tp x prnh pakai....
hehehe.....

itulah yg terjadi....
disbbkn penat sgt smlm....
aku x on9....
x sentuh pun laptop aku ni....

hari ni lak....
satu benda yg aku x prnh bayangkn t'jd....
jd kat aku....
tgh aku syok2 tgk tv awal2 pg....
tiba2 'that jerk' call aku....
mle2 aku xnk jwb pggln tu sbb mls nk gaduh ngan dia....
tp bler difikirkan blik....
aku jwb gak....
nk tau pe 'that jerk' nk????
he ask me out....
terkejut gler babi aku....
aku pun boring dok umah....
so aku kluar ah ngan dia....
pegi JJ jer....
dh sampai kat JJ tuh....
dia ajak aku mkn kat secret receipe....
aku pun ikut jer ah....

mle an....
kteorg senyap jer....
x tau nk ckp apa....
aku mls nk ckp....
sbb setiap kali aku ckp....
mesti akan menyebabkn pergaduhan....
so lebih baik aku diam....
aku melantak ah blueberry cheese cake yg aku pesan tu....
tetiba....
'that jerk' ask me 2 be his contract gf....
what the hell!!!!
dia ckp dia perlukan aku tuk wat x-gf dier jelez n kembali kpd dia....
yg wat aku bengkek gler....
dia ckp dia akan bayar aku....
apa dia ingat aku ni prempuan murahan ker????!!!!
ada ke tulis dkt atas kepala aku....
gf 4 sale....
or....
despretely need a bf????
bodoh punya lelaki....
urgh!!!!
aku dh menyirap darah waktu tu....
aku trus blah dr situ....
n balik umah....
dia call....
aku off fond....
pergi mampuslah dia....

I AM NOT 4 SALE....
yes i'm single....
but....
NOT AVAILABLE....
SIALAN NYER MAMAT!!!!
lelaki sumernya x gne....
kecuali kluarga aku n TVXQ....
yg lain....
sumernya x gne....
ske ambik kesempatan terhdp prempuan yg baik cam aku ni [baik ke????]....

well....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!

Renungan bersama Qis....

Hari ini,
mari kita renungankan tentang kehdpn kita masa lalu....
kita bandingankan diri kita yang dulu dan skrg....
adakah kita lebih baik dr dulu????
ataupun kita tidak prnh brubah????
hmm....
diri aku kini dan skrg....
banyak bezanya....
dulu aku ni seorg yg pendiam....
tak brani nak luahkan kata hati aku....
dan slalu dipinggirkan....
skrg....
aku ni banyak ckp....
asyik ckp jer kerja aku....
aku akan luahkan pemikiran aku dan apa yang aku rs....
dh xder dh jaga2 hati org lg.....
aku ni slalu jd perhatian....
disbbkn prangai aku yg gler2 n kwn2 aku yg pelbagai jenis....
dan krn aku ni slalu jd mangsa ngumpat....
adakah aku lg baik skrg dr dulu????
aku sendiri pun tak tahu....
rsnya skrg aku lebih baik....
sbb skrg aku tahu cara nk express diri aku....
aku x dipinggirkan....
dan aku x digunakan oleh org lain....
skrg aku yg gnekan org....
hehehe....
tp an....
ada org kata....
dia lebih ske aku yg lama....
dia kata aku yg lama lebih keperempuanan....
lebih berbudi bahasa....
dan pandai jg ati org....
yalah tu....
entah2....
dia ske aku yg lama sbb dia leh gnekn aku....
hish!!!!
aku ni....
x baik buat andaian tanpa tahu hal sbnr....
tp aku trima pendapat dia....
well....
that's 4 2day....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!
TVXQ IS THE BEST!!!!
SHINee IS THE SECOND BEST!!!!

Hari yg memenatkan....

hari ni hari yg memenatkan otak aku....
xder ah penat sgt....
tp penat ah gak....

aku dgn org tuh dh ok blik....
aku jer yg pikir yg bkn2....
sbnrnya xder pape pun....
wat suspen jerk aku ni....

si ZK tu lak tegur aku ari ni....
sejak dier tau aku ni kluarga k.ngah....
bkn main dier....
tp best gak bler rapat ngan dier....
bleh lah aku gne dier thn dpn....
gne utk kepentingan aku....
hahaha!!!!

aku bengkek gler bler cari TVXQ nyer layout....
tp xder yg sesuai....
sakit ati jerk....
but its ok....
nnt aku cari yg baek punya....
klu susah2....
aku wat ah layout tuh....
bknnya susah pun....
hehehe.....

well....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!

Cam sial jerk....

URGH!!!!
I HATE THEM!!!!
HATE THEM!!!!
HATE THEM!!!!
STUPID IDIOT JERK!!!!
STUPID!!!!
ARGH!!!!

That jerk really bring down my nerve today....
i felt like killing him....
if i could just stab a knife through his heart....
pabo....
urgh!!!!

ada ker si sialan tu pggl aku 'frogy'....
sialan tul .....
dia ingat dier hebat sgt????
jaga dier....
bler aku jumpa dier nnt....
aku tanam dier hdp2....
x gnenyer manusia....

si spupu2 aku....
sumernya sakit an ati aku jerk....
aku x ske bler org ikut2 benda yg aku ske dulu....
cam sial jerk....
its not that i hate her....
but the way she acts....
makes me hate her....
ske ngutuk org....
tp dia x sedar....
yg dier tu sama jer ngan org yg dier kutuk tu....
hish!!!!
dh tu....
benda yg aku ske....
tetiba dier nk ske....
aku x ske ah....
tp x per....
aku kne releks jerk....
dia spupu aku....
so knelah tahan....
well....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!

Kisah semalam....

semlm x sempat aku nk tulis blog....
sibuk memikirkan banyak benda....
bgn jer semlm....
aku terus buat kerja umah....
n then on9....
benda yg paling menyakitkan terjd....
org yg slama ini aku anggap sbgi kwn baik....
langsung x hargai aku....
sakitnya hati....
x bermakna ker aku utk ko????
who am i 2 u????
mungkin aku ni hanya seorg yg x bermakna dlm hdp ko....
but its ok....
i understand all of this....
i can take it....

Hari ni aku tgk ah some survey pasal TVXQ....
i think....
xiah 2 mcm bangga diri....
nyampah gak....
tp aku still ske kat dier....
tp x sehebat aku ske kat u-know n micky....
they r the best!!!!
love TVXQ!!!!
well....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!

I'm a spoiled brat n I'm proud of it....

2day....
I'm glad 2 be the 'anak manja'....
i love being a spoiled brat....
hahaha!!!!
its fun....
papa ari ni asyik manjakan aku jerk....
papa panggil aku adik....
si pqa bengkek jer....
sbb dia patutnya dipanggil adik....
tp aku lak yg dpt....
hehehe.....

apa yg aku mintak ari ni....
sumernya dpt....
bestnya!!!!
kan bgs klu hari2 mcm ni....
no prob....
no sadness....
only happinest with my beloved papa n mama....
I LOVE MY PAWENT SO DAMN MUCH!!!!
well....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!

Sumernya ok kowt????

rsnya....
mulai skrg....
sumernya akan ok....
i just had a feeling....
that things will be just fine after this....

pg td aku bengkek jer....
sumer org pggl aku anak manja....
biar ah aku manja ngan mama papa....
nk jelez lak dorang ni....
walau pun aku anak sulong....
x bermakna aku x bleh manja ngan pawents aku....
ske ati akulah nk wat pe pun....
bodoh tul dorang tuh....

atuk ngan nenek gi cameron dgn adik2 aku yg lain....
so kat umah tinggallah aku,
adik aku yg kedua tu....
n pawents aku....
sumernya ok jer....
angin pun sentiasa bertiupan....
hehehe....

dkt facebook....
aku buallah ngan sorang peminat TVXQ ni....
dier cter ari 2....
24 nov 2008....
max kne pukul ngan beg tgn n kne maki....
dgn peminat hero....
cian dier....
nasib bek bkn u-know n micky aku yg kne....
klu dorang yg kne....
aku tanam hdp2 org tuh....
hehehe....
tp an....
poor max....
i understand how it feel when someone hit ur head....
i felt it b-4....
the moral of the story is....
always wear ur helmet at all time....
hahaha!!!!

well....
hidup TVXQ....
TVXQ the best boy band ever....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!

Everything is gonna be ok now....

semuanya akan ok mulai skrg....
mcm mana aku tahu????
well....
someone told me....
my cable guy....
mmglah dia x dtg jumpa aku....
tp dia kirimkan semuanya mengunakan angin....
aku slalu mengaggap cable guy sbgi angin.....
yg sentiasa bertiup di sisi aku....
waktu aku sedih....
aku jerit pastu ckp....
is everything is going 2 be ok????
will u always be rite here next 2 me????
r u meant 4 me...
n suddenly....
angin bertiup dgn kencang....
aku tahu sumer akan jadi ok jer lps ni....
TVXQ hidup selamanya....
yeah!!!
well....
caiyok!!!!

Missing him....

huh....
i miss my cable guy so much....
it feel so hard....
wish i could call him....
n just tell him how i miss him....
but i can't do that....
i'll break my promise if i do that....
y do i even made that promise????
stupid me....
but well....
sumernya dh berlaku....
nasi dh jd bubur....
dh xleh nk wat pape agi....
yg penting aku kne truskan hdp.....

lg2 dlm album TVXQ yg bru tu sumer best....
yg plg best ialah mirotic, wrong number n don't say goodbye....
aku nk bg lg don't say goodbye 2 kat cable guy....
sesuai dgn apa yg aku nk ckp kat dier....
biar dia tahu betapa aku syg kan dier....
n betapa terseksa nyer aku bler kne lpekan dier....
well....
caiyok!!!!

Owh well....

What happen 2day????
hmm....
i'm missing my friends so damn much!!!!
oct plak pindah gi Kedah ari ni....
so sad....
feel like crying....
xder ah agi teman mengumpat waktu balik skolah.....

aku agak stress ari ni....
org sumer dh mle tekan aku....
thn dpn nak PMR....
blajar lah....
n what so ever....
argh!!!!
can't take it anymore....
i feel like going crazy....
n i want 2 scream out loud....
tell everyone how i'm stress out n how much i miss my cable guy....
owh well....
caiyok!!!!

Hish....!!!!

Sbnrnya ari ni sumer oklah....
cme an....
spupu aku tuh....
tah ah....
x tau camne nk ckp....
aku mmg ske kat dia....
tp....
prangai dia tuh....
asyik ingat lelaki jerk....
tah brapa banyak lelaki dia ske pun aku xtau....
pastu....
dia asyik bertenggek jer kat sblh aku....
rimas dowh....
apa yg aku ske....
sumer dia ske....
hish!!!!
aku x ske ah camni....
pe nk wat ek????
nk ckp ker ngan dia yg aku x ske prangai dia tu????
peningnya....

aku bual ngan my clown n ayam ari ni....
they r so funny....
aku ngan ayam biasa ah....
gaduh x habis2....
tp best gaduh ngan dia....
hehehe....
that's all 4 2 day....
caiyok!!!!

I'm back!!!!

i'm back!!!!
slama brape ari ni aku gi camp....
sbb tu x tulis blog....
camp yg aku di tu....
mmg camp yg plg %&$#& pernah aku gi....
mmg cam &$%#....
tak baik ah mencarut an....

sblm aku gi camp tu....
aku gi jln2 kat KL ngan cousin aku....
tp mmg x disangka-sangkakan....
aku jumpa kembar ayam....
iaitu itik....
terkejut aku bler tgk dia....
well....
its nice 2 meet him back....

hari pertama kat cmp....
its ok....
aku jumpa dak skolah aku....
azan n si buntal....
but suddenly that night....
when everyone is asleep....
i cary like a little baby....
missing my mom, dad....
my DA(BFF)....
my susu kering cap singa laut(BFF)....
TVXQ/DBSK the best boy band ever!!!!
but mostly....
i miss 4 my clown....
n cable guy....
b-coz b4 i went 2 camp....
they greet me first....
it was a shocking....
but i'm happy....

the second day at camp....
its like a hell....
aku sakit perut cam nk mati....
ntah pe aku mkn pun aku x tau ah....
tgh2 sakit perut tu, aku duduk kat tempat rehat....
mula2 dgn abg ustaz n abg macho....
diaorg layan aku dgn baik....
pastu abf doktor sampai....
so abg doktor ah jaga aku....
entah dr mana....
muncul lak doremon yg prasan comel tuh....
dier gi ckp aku berlakon sakit....
cam %$#@ jer dier tuh....
nasib bek abg doktor baik....
waktu aku hampir2 nk pengsan....
dia support badan aku dr blakang....
he is so sweet....

the third n the last day....
hari plg best skali sepanjang camp %$#@ itu berlangsung....
pagi2 ada Qiamullai....
pastu srpn pagi....
n after that ada jungle tracking....
it was really fun....
lps jungle tracking....
redah sungai lak....
bayak yg mandi sungai skali....
aku setakat basahkan kaki jerk sbb bj aku takut jarang....
skali spupu aku baling air....
so basah kuyup ah aku....
aku mrungut ah....
pastu tetiba abg doktor dtg tah dr mana tah n say....
abg pun basah....
aku ckp balik....
abg lelaki, sy prempuan, aurat ah....
abg doktor pun ckp blik....
meh pakai bj abg ni....
dier offer bj dia yang dh basah tu....
aku tolak....
xnk aku....

akhirnya aku sampai rumah....
home sweet home....
xder tempat yg lebih indah n selesa dr rumah sndr....
i'm waiting 4 mama n papa 2 come home....
cause i miss them so damn much!!!!
well....
caiyok!!!!

The sweet memories of the past....

today....
is one of the most hardest day i have to through....
sumernya ok mula2....
tiba2....
i heard TVXQ song "Proud'....
it reminds me of the sweet memories of the past....
memori indah antara aku dgn cable guy....
mungkin sumer memori ini....
hanya memori biasa buat dia....
tp ianya memori yg sgt berharga buat aku....
ianya lebih berharga dr nyawa aku sndr....
susahnya nk lupakn dia....
klu aku x prnh knl dgn dia....
hdp aku takkan jd bgtu sayu mcm ni....
mungkin aku xkn prnh lukakan hati my prince charming....
mungkin aku masih ceria n hepi sprti dulu....
tp klu aku x prnh knl cable guy....
aku xkn prnh tahu erti setia....
erti rindu....
erti pershbtn...
erti kasih syg....
mungkin juga aku xkn syg diri aku mcm skrg ni....
argh!!!!
sakit kepala fikir sumer ni....
maybe its time for me to take a vacation....
take a very long time to think....
in the same time....
calm my mind....
n think what's best for me....
well....
caiyok!!!!

penat seh....

dah brape lama aku tak tulis blog....
bru 2 hari....
sorry ah....
busy sikit....
buat kerja yang tak sepatutnya aku buat....
hehehe.....

hari ni aku penat....
penat kemas rumah....
duduk jer....
mesti mama panggil buat kerja....
argh!!!!
stress seh....
tp aku x kesah sgt....
dah terbiasa dah.....

dua hari ni aku tak tgk mke TVXQ kesygn aku....
rindu gler....
hehehe....
mcmlah dorang rindu kat aku....
knl pun tidak....
hehehe....
that's all for today....
well....
caiyok!!!!

So sad....

so sad....
i'm so damn sad....
sad about everything....
yang paling buat aku sedih bler Oct nak pindah....
argh!!!!
xder lagi teman aku mengumpat....
xder lg org akan teman aku waktu nk balik....
argh!!!!
i'm gonna miss u Oct....

lg satu yg buat aku cedih ialah....
sumer org asyik ckp aku bodoh....
bodoh sbb lpskn cable guy....
what am i suppose 2 do????
aku xnk jd org ketiga....
aku bhga asalkan dia bhga....

tpkan....
sumer benda asyik ingatkn aku pd cable guy....
tah brape banyak kali aku dgr nama dia....
sial tul!!!!
argh!!!!
aku cedih!!!!
knplah bler aku nk lupakan dia....
mesti sumer benda mengingatkan aku pd dia....
argh!!!!

well....
apa pun terjd....
i'm still have 2 smile....
caiyok!!!!

Never knew it could be so hard....

sebelum ini aku rs senang nk lpskn cable guy....
tp bler terpaksa ckp sendiri dgn dia....
its feel so hard....
aku xnk lpskn dia....
i don't want 2 walk away from his life....
but i have 2....
ini semua utk kebahagiaan dia....
aku hepi....
asalkan dia hepi....
mungkin aku bodoh sebab buat sumer ni utk dia....
tp aku x kisah....

cable guy asyik mintak alasan knp aku nk putuskn pshbtn kteorg....
aku x tau nk ckp pe....
aku buat sumer ni sbb aku nk cable guy bhga dgn 'dia'....
aku harap cable guy maafkn aku....
n aku harap dia faham knp aku buat semua ini utk dia....
aku harap dia tahu....
betapa aku sygkn dia....
but well....
aku tetap bhga dgn keputusan aku....
well....
caiyok!!!!

And the oscar goes 2.....

and the oscar goes to me....
yeyy!!!!
hari ni aku berlakon baek punya!!!!
sampaikan dugong tu bleh menagis meraung-raung.....
hahaha!!!!
aku berlakon konon-kononnya aku ni penyebab dia dan bf dia break up....
dan akulah gf baru bf dia tu....
menangis bagai nak rak si dugong tu....
aku tahan jer gelak....
lakonan aku memang berkesan....
hehehe....
jahat betul aku ni....

petang tu susu kering cap singa laut ajak aku jumpa pendek(bf dier)....
sekali bler nk jumpa tu ada lak tom kurus dan dugong....
jd x dpt jumpa ah....
terpaksalah aku gi jumpa pendek n ckp srry behalf of susu kering cap singa laut....

ayam pulak lawak gila hari ni....
dia ni memang rapat dengan aku dgn susu kering cap singa laut...
pandai dia ambik hati aku....
tapi sian dugong....
dia asyik jd mangsa kutukkan jer....
cian....

aku dengan tom kurus pun dah baik....
mcm kteorg x penah gaduh lak....
things r doing just fine...
nampaknya ada jugak hikmah aku lupakan cable guy....
well....
caiyok!!!!

Second day of a new life....

Argh!!!!
its so hard for me to 4get that cable guy....
i'm going insane here....
everything i do....
reminds me of him....
well....
maybe....
little by little....
i can 4get about him....
better late than never right....
well....
caiyok!!!!

A new brief of life....

wake up early in the morning today....
the sun shine brightly....
i never realize that sun shine is actually very beautiful n peaceful....
it feel so great....
finally i got 2 forget the past n through the future....
life is good....

after taking a bath....
i start to change my room....
i throw out everything that reminds me of that cable guy n detective connan.....
goodbye my past....
n hello my future....
my room actually look so great after i throw out all the memories that i kept all these years....
i should do that a long time ago....
but....
lets forget about it....

after i've change everything in my room....
i take a break n on9....
i'm quite tired actually....
but its worth the effort....
i feel so damn good....

GOODBYE ALL MY SAD PAST....
HELLO MY GREAT FUTURE....
SMILE ALWAYS....
NJOY UR LIFE!!!!