In loving memory of Rara....

When everythings end....
2008 ends....
ends my bestfriend life.....
everything ends.....
there is no more Rara.....
my oldest....
truest bestfriend....
n....
the bestfriend i've never appreciate.....
the bestfriend i've killed....

wanna know what happen????
well....
Rara is my bestfriend since i was little....
our friendship is strong.....
until one day she have a bf.....
n i start school at SMK BTHO2.....
at first everything was doing smooth....
but one day....
i can't stand it anymore....
she always choosing her bf....
then me.....
so i was so fed up....
so i stood up 2 her....
n then she said.....
u're the one who dosen't care about me....
u always busy with ur new friends n that cable guy.....
u always put me at the second place....
n i was so furious that time....
i said something i shouldn't say....
i said....
i hate u....
n i never want 2 see ur face ever again....
that is the last thing i've said b-4 she's died....
n when i wanted 2 say srry....
n give her Mirotic Album.....
that my cousin from korea buy it 4 me....
i got the news....
that she killed her self....
the last thing she said b-4 she died....
is she wanted 2 see me again....
but i wasn't there.....

i miss her so much rite now....
i miss the time we go 2 the mall....
n shop till we'll drop.....
or....
help Aunty Lisa at her restaurant....
n when we meet somebody we don't like.....
we put extra salt in their food....
or....
when we watch Purple Line MV....
n laugh out loud cause....
we thought U-know was a girl when he rap....

i miss the time when....
she make the most big birthday party every year 4 my bufday....
n she will give me a big present.....
i miss the time when....
we dance 2 the Nobody song from Wonder Girls....
i miss the time when....
we cry in the middle of the nite....
watching Korean Drama.....
i miss the time when....
we have a stupid fantasy about....
marrying one of the TVXQ members....
i miss every little thing about us....
i miss her.....
n i was the reason she killed herself....
i hate myself....
i hate myself....

School is going 2 start..... NO!!!!

School is starting!!!!
I HATE SCHOOL!!!!
u wanna know y????
b-coz there's a lots of bitch n suck people in my school.....
urgh!!!!
how can i survive next year????
all of my enemy is the same session as me.....
damn!!!!
I HATE SCHOOL!!!!
but i still got 2 go 2 school.....
still got 2 learn 4 PMR next year.....
my life is getting sucker every day.....
wish there's someone will make me happy next year....
n will always make me happy the rest of my life.....
i wish cable guy is beside me.....
i wish i've never known people that always hurt me rite now.....
wish I can get in one class as Miera.....
wish my life gets better.....
well.....
i have 2 look forward 2 my unclear future....
n never look back at my horrible plus sweet past....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!
TVXQ ROCKS!!!!

Korean fever at my house....

hahaha!!!!
korean fever tgh melanda kluarga aku.....
hahaha!!!!
satu kluarga minat korea dkt umah aku.....
especially TVXQ.....
they r the most lovable among all of korean stars.....
even my grandma know them.....
she can even sing the wrong number song.....
hahaha!!!!
this is all my work.....
i'm the one who make them like korean.....
TVXQ should thanks me.....
cause i just make them more popular.....
popular even 2 granny.....
well.....
i am in love with korean stars.....
TVXQ.....
SMASH....
SHINee
SS501.....
Big Bang.....
Super Junior.....
2pm.....
Wonder Girls.....
Brown Eyed Girls....
Kara.....
Seeya.....
SNSD.....
BoA.....
Bi Rain.....
Lee Hyori.....
Beak Ji Young.....
Lee Soo Young.....
owh i love them all.....
well.....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!

The story of a girl....

this is the story of a girl....
a girl who always cheerful....
n always a step forward then every one else.....
she always think about her future.....
n she already had a plan for her future....
but now....
everything change......
all of her plan.....
is ruin.....
because.....
she fell in love.....
and she started 2 think.....
she's not good enough.....
she's not good in giving advice 2 people.....
she's not so good at her studies.....
she's not a good leader as she was before.....
she's not a good writer as people say she was.....
she's not even a better person then her enemy.....
her life....
is not as she plan 3 years ago.....
she lost everything....
her bestfriend.....
her family....
her one and only love.....
her future.....
everything.....
now.....
she's sitting in front of her computer.....
writing in her blog.....
about her disaster life.....
tears keep falling....
and no one is listening 2 her yearning.....
one thing that she had now is.....
nothing.....
her future seems 2 be so dark and unclear.....
what will happen next????
is she will survive this painful life????
or will she give up in her life.....
n end up killing her self????
what ever will happen next.....
she's ready for it.....
she just hope.....
everybody else ready 4 it.....

Now I know.....

everybody is so nice 2 me 2day....
now i know why.....
they want me 2 baby sit that lil devil.....
urgh!!!!
last time i baby sit that devil.....
i end up having mud all over my body.....
locked out of the house.....
n have 2 wait 4 my parents come home in the rain.....
that lil devil is such a pain in the back.....
but he has the most cutest brother in the whole world.....
if i have a good luck.....
maybe.....
that lil devil will act nicely.....
n his bro will fall 4 me.....
n we live happily ever after.....
or the vice verse.....
everyone will end up coming 2 my funeral....
b-coz that lil devil kills me.....
well.....
i have 2 baby sit that devil 2morrow.....
if i die.....
i just want 2 say.....
i love everybody.....
diya.....
n miera.....
u're guys r the best......
may gc live 4 ever.....
TVXQ is still the best.....
kenang daku dlm doamu.....
dramatic nyer.....
mcm nk mati btul2 lak.....
hahaha!!!!

well.....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!

Once a bitch..... always a bitch.....

i ni aku mengamuk gler tahap babun!!!!
aku mengamuk mcm singa kelaparan....
urgh!!!!
that *****
dia ske apa yg aku ske....
sumer yg aku ske.....
sumer dia nk.....
apa lg yg dia x puas hati ngan aku????
eh....
dia dh dpt an apa yg dia nk.....
tp masih nk kacau hdp aku.....
fine!!!!
klu perang yg dia nk.....
perang yg akan dia dpt.....
ini qistinalah.....
bkn calang.....
calang org.....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!

The begining of another painful life....

i got a baby brother 2day!!!!
yey!!!!
this mean another painful life is going 2 start....
sucks!!!!
i hate my life....
i hate it....
i know i should be happy b-coz i have a new baby brother....
but....
when he comes 2 my life....
everyone will pay attention 2 him....
n what i want....
what i need....
dosen't metter anymore....
no one will care about me....
and what my parents will say....
she's a big girl now....
we have 2 take care of the baby....
yes i'm a big girl....
but i still have feelings....
n u know what....
i hate everything in my life....
b-coz my life is sucks....
the only thing is not sucks in my life....
is my friends....
they r the only one that care about me....
i guess....
well....
i have 2 be strong.....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!

Hahaha!!!! Qys gler + bodoh.....

Qys bodoh & glerkn????
aku tahu....
aku rs cam dh nk ilang akal....
stress seh....
aku tgh pikir psl masa depan....
masa depan yg blm aku dpt tentukan....
argh!!!!
apa impian aku????
aku sendiri pun x tau....
bodoh x aku ni....
nenek aku nk aku jadi pilot....
atuk aku lak nk aku jd doctor....
arwah nenek belah mama nk aku jd nurse....
kwn-kwn ckp aku lebih baik jd penulis....
papa suruh aku kejar impian aku....
argh!!!!
i don't know where 2 go....
what's the right thing....
i want my own dreams....
n for the i'm gonna scream!!!!
apa yg Norqistina Akmar nk sbnrnya????
aku rs aku nk jd interial designer....
and in oder 2 do that....
i have 2 change school....
sbb skolah aku xder mata pljrn utk designer.....
tp aku xnk pisah dgn kwn2 aku....
n klu aku jd interial designer....
aku akan hampakan harapan banyak org....
aku xnk buat org hampa....
argh!!!!
damn!!!!
life is getting sucker....
but well....
i choose this kind of life....
so i have 2 live it no metter what happen....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!

Happy or sad????

2day....
i got to know what my class for 2009....
i got class inovatif....
the class that a lot people hate this year....
should i be sad or happy????
the reason for my sadness....
b-coz miera is not in the same class as me....
there is no ayam....
that can cheer me up when i'm sad....
i'm not in the same class of any of my past class mate....
there's a lot of reason why i should be sad....
reason for me to be happy....
because i'm not in the same class with dugong....
and because i've got a class that higher then my old class....
i think i'm sad....
so sad....
its better if i stay at my old class....
i don't think i want to separate from my friends....
argh!!!!
life sucks!!!!
well....
live must go on....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!

Sakitnya.....

hish....
bgn pagi2 jer....
sumernya sakit....
sakit tekak....
sakit kepala....
sakit ati.....
pg2 agi adik-adik aku dh wat hal....
hish!!!! cilanat tul!!!!
dh aku demam ni....
hish.....
smlm....
chah bg tau aku dia dh tau result klas thn depan.....
adynn turun klas agi....
aku nk ckp pe pun x tau.....
minah tu aku leh fahamlah.....
2 sub dia x lulus....
adynn ni plak....
hish....
turun klas....
dahlah dia anak ckg....
aku x tau pe aku nk ckp.....
aku takut aku turun klas gak....
argh!!!!
tidak....
harap2 aku sama klas ngan miera....
nk sama klas ngan diya tp diakn pndi....
impossible aku dpt datu klas ngan diya blik....
well....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!

Lelaki....

hari ni....
aku dgr mslh....
mslh mak sdara aku ngan husband dier.....
lelaki ni mmg gatal....
dh ada bini n 4 org anak pun....
masih gatal....
hish!!!!
x tau ah nk ckp pe....
aku rs takut lak nk ada bf n percayakan lelaki....
trutama skali....
lelaki melayu....
hopeless....
hish!!!!
susah tul hdp ni....
single is better....
but i can't stay single 4 ever....
just wish i found the right guy....
well....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!

LOL....

hari ni aku asyik gelak jer....
tgk TVXQ lah....
klakar tul....
pastu dgr adik aku gelak....
mcm pontianak....
terbahak-bahak aku gelak....
klu si ayam dgr aku gelak....
mesti dier ngumpat aku....
hahaha!!!!

xder pape yg jd ari ni....
tgk tv....
surfe the internet....
tu jer ah yg aku buat....
boring plak cuti ni rsnya....
hmm....
cpt2 ah start skolah....
aku dh rindu sgt kwn2 aku....
miss my friends so much....
hmm....
well....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!
TVXQ STILL THE BEST N 4EVER WILL BE!!!!

Gambar raya smlm....

nilah gambar2 raya smlm....
hehehe....
best gler raya smlm....
mcm raya aidilfitri lak....
dan sprti biasa....
smlm mrupakan hari aku mengumpat org....
biasalah aku ni mmg....
hahaha!!!!
well....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!
TVXQ THE BEST BOY BAND EVER!!!!

Sehari sblm raya korban....

busy.....
busy.....
busy.....
sibuk masak....
kemas rumah....
dan of coz....
tidur......
sbnrnya....
aku sibuk goyang kaki jer....
hahaha!!!!
biasalah....
aku ni mmg camni....

hmm....
knp an....
stiap kali raya....
mesti ada rendang, lodeh n ketupat????
plik ah....
n boring....
balik2 mkn makanan yg sama....
hish!!!!
knp bler raya....
kita x mkn pizza ker....
spagetti ker.....
burger ker....
brulah baek punya....
blik2 mkn makanan yg sama....
x boring ker....
hish!!!!

aku ni membebel plak....
hehehe....
ok....
well....
TVXQ THE BEST!!!!
LOVE YUNHO n MICKY SO DAMN MUCH!!!!
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!

Hari ini dan smlm....

URGH!!!!
huhhhh....
jom aku cter kat korang pe yg jd smlm....
aku tlh dipaksa oleh mama aku utk membersihkan almari aku....
terpaksalah aku kemas....
kemas punya kemas....
mcm2 aku jumpa....
surat2....
gambar....
brg2 perhiasan aku yg dh lme hilang....
mcm2 ah....
banyak btul baju2 aku ni....
yg x prnh aku pakai pun ada....
hampir 65% baju2 aku....
aku x prnh pakai....
isyk3....
aku ni mmg camni....
bli tp x prnh pakai....
hehehe.....

itulah yg terjadi....
disbbkn penat sgt smlm....
aku x on9....
x sentuh pun laptop aku ni....

hari ni lak....
satu benda yg aku x prnh bayangkn t'jd....
jd kat aku....
tgh aku syok2 tgk tv awal2 pg....
tiba2 'that jerk' call aku....
mle2 aku xnk jwb pggln tu sbb mls nk gaduh ngan dia....
tp bler difikirkan blik....
aku jwb gak....
nk tau pe 'that jerk' nk????
he ask me out....
terkejut gler babi aku....
aku pun boring dok umah....
so aku kluar ah ngan dia....
pegi JJ jer....
dh sampai kat JJ tuh....
dia ajak aku mkn kat secret receipe....
aku pun ikut jer ah....

mle an....
kteorg senyap jer....
x tau nk ckp apa....
aku mls nk ckp....
sbb setiap kali aku ckp....
mesti akan menyebabkn pergaduhan....
so lebih baik aku diam....
aku melantak ah blueberry cheese cake yg aku pesan tu....
tetiba....
'that jerk' ask me 2 be his contract gf....
what the hell!!!!
dia ckp dia perlukan aku tuk wat x-gf dier jelez n kembali kpd dia....
yg wat aku bengkek gler....
dia ckp dia akan bayar aku....
apa dia ingat aku ni prempuan murahan ker????!!!!
ada ke tulis dkt atas kepala aku....
gf 4 sale....
or....
despretely need a bf????
bodoh punya lelaki....
urgh!!!!
aku dh menyirap darah waktu tu....
aku trus blah dr situ....
n balik umah....
dia call....
aku off fond....
pergi mampuslah dia....

I AM NOT 4 SALE....
yes i'm single....
but....
NOT AVAILABLE....
SIALAN NYER MAMAT!!!!
lelaki sumernya x gne....
kecuali kluarga aku n TVXQ....
yg lain....
sumernya x gne....
ske ambik kesempatan terhdp prempuan yg baik cam aku ni [baik ke????]....

well....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!

Renungan bersama Qis....

Hari ini,
mari kita renungankan tentang kehdpn kita masa lalu....
kita bandingankan diri kita yang dulu dan skrg....
adakah kita lebih baik dr dulu????
ataupun kita tidak prnh brubah????
hmm....
diri aku kini dan skrg....
banyak bezanya....
dulu aku ni seorg yg pendiam....
tak brani nak luahkan kata hati aku....
dan slalu dipinggirkan....
skrg....
aku ni banyak ckp....
asyik ckp jer kerja aku....
aku akan luahkan pemikiran aku dan apa yang aku rs....
dh xder dh jaga2 hati org lg.....
aku ni slalu jd perhatian....
disbbkn prangai aku yg gler2 n kwn2 aku yg pelbagai jenis....
dan krn aku ni slalu jd mangsa ngumpat....
adakah aku lg baik skrg dr dulu????
aku sendiri pun tak tahu....
rsnya skrg aku lebih baik....
sbb skrg aku tahu cara nk express diri aku....
aku x dipinggirkan....
dan aku x digunakan oleh org lain....
skrg aku yg gnekan org....
hehehe....
tp an....
ada org kata....
dia lebih ske aku yg lama....
dia kata aku yg lama lebih keperempuanan....
lebih berbudi bahasa....
dan pandai jg ati org....
yalah tu....
entah2....
dia ske aku yg lama sbb dia leh gnekn aku....
hish!!!!
aku ni....
x baik buat andaian tanpa tahu hal sbnr....
tp aku trima pendapat dia....
well....
that's 4 2day....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!
TVXQ IS THE BEST!!!!
SHINee IS THE SECOND BEST!!!!

Hari yg memenatkan....

hari ni hari yg memenatkan otak aku....
xder ah penat sgt....
tp penat ah gak....

aku dgn org tuh dh ok blik....
aku jer yg pikir yg bkn2....
sbnrnya xder pape pun....
wat suspen jerk aku ni....

si ZK tu lak tegur aku ari ni....
sejak dier tau aku ni kluarga k.ngah....
bkn main dier....
tp best gak bler rapat ngan dier....
bleh lah aku gne dier thn dpn....
gne utk kepentingan aku....
hahaha!!!!

aku bengkek gler bler cari TVXQ nyer layout....
tp xder yg sesuai....
sakit ati jerk....
but its ok....
nnt aku cari yg baek punya....
klu susah2....
aku wat ah layout tuh....
bknnya susah pun....
hehehe.....

well....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!

Cam sial jerk....

URGH!!!!
I HATE THEM!!!!
HATE THEM!!!!
HATE THEM!!!!
STUPID IDIOT JERK!!!!
STUPID!!!!
ARGH!!!!

That jerk really bring down my nerve today....
i felt like killing him....
if i could just stab a knife through his heart....
pabo....
urgh!!!!

ada ker si sialan tu pggl aku 'frogy'....
sialan tul .....
dia ingat dier hebat sgt????
jaga dier....
bler aku jumpa dier nnt....
aku tanam dier hdp2....
x gnenyer manusia....

si spupu2 aku....
sumernya sakit an ati aku jerk....
aku x ske bler org ikut2 benda yg aku ske dulu....
cam sial jerk....
its not that i hate her....
but the way she acts....
makes me hate her....
ske ngutuk org....
tp dia x sedar....
yg dier tu sama jer ngan org yg dier kutuk tu....
hish!!!!
dh tu....
benda yg aku ske....
tetiba dier nk ske....
aku x ske ah....
tp x per....
aku kne releks jerk....
dia spupu aku....
so knelah tahan....
well....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!