So yesterday....

what happen yesterday????
someone from my past....
that i hate so much....
come back in my life....
Abg Trofi n miera is call the perfect couple....
n i see CFO with his beloved gf....
life sucks when all this bad things kept happening....

Naim a.k.a Toyol....
he is someone who used 2 be my brother....
the one i used 2 be respecting....
n the one who make me felt so stupid....
so unperfect....
n so many bad things....
i saw him with syafiq rid. at my school 2day....
WTF!!!!
y is the past keep haunting me????
what have i done until they keep on coming back 2 my life????

abg trofi....
n miera....
had been call as....
the perfect sweet new couple....
by some of my classmate....
when i heard their conversation....
my tears suddenly fall....
i quickly run away from there....
it happen when i was waiting 2 that stupid Rapid KL bus....
it was raining....
n i was crying....
but i kept on being strong....
i wipe out my tears....
n go back 2 that bus stop....

then a few minutes after that....
CFO suddenly walk towards the bus stop with his gf....
n my tears want 2 fall....
but i stop it....
i just smile....
even though my hearts is torn in to pieces.....

y is this all bad things kept happening towards me????
what have i done until....
i kept seeing things....
that can make me cry????
what should i do 2 become stronger????
what can i do....
2 make this pain go away????

Embarrassing Day!!!!

how embarrassing!!!!
y do i keep embarrassing myself????
stupid me....
well....
its quite fun embarrassing my own self....
it makes me laugh out loud....
hehehe....

the day start as usual....
LATE 4 SCHOOL....
i think the prefect already know that i'm going 2 be late....
The Late Girl Face....
huhuhu....
and u know who's the first person i lay eyes on....
it'll be that damn CFO....
y when i want 2 4get about him....
i keep seeing his stupid damn face????!!!!
i kept seeing his face this past few weeks....
DARN IT!!!!

then i kept seeing AT face....
y is this all keep happening to me????
its not fare ok....
i try to run away from him....
he came 2 my class 2day....
cause he need 2 discussed about the +[[g_c]]+ t-shirt....
when i saw him....
i completely change....
n run away 2 the toilet with Athirah....
its all happen 2 fast....
my body react like it has it own brain....
i was completely un aware about what i was doing....
actually....
everytime he want 2 come n see me or the others....
i'll react like that....
hope he doesn't notice it....

my heart become sad....
when i heard hurin n the gang said...
"AT is dating with miera"....
i suddenly felt like crying????
what's wrong with me????
i don't understand my own heart....
i don't like him anymore....
but y do i felt this way????

then i wrote a letter 2 minah....
i want 2 express my feelings 2 her....
she's the only one that i can trust in the class....
i don't want miera n adyyn 2 know about this....
i don't want to hurt miera's feelings....
i don't want 2 ruin her relationship with AT....
adynn suddenly grab the letter from minah's hand....
n i shout something that draws the attention of the whole class....
i never know how embarrassed i felt that time....
huhuhu....
stupid me....
but after all....
i managed 2 get that letter back b-4 adynn could even read it....

in the lab 2day....
we do some experiment....
as usual....
athirah n dugong will handle the whole thing....
me n the others....
just watch them....
after they finish the unsuccessful experiment....
they need 2 clean it....
n i said to them....
"Becareful cause if the lime water reacts with the chemical....
it'll blow...."
but that dugong bitch don't listen 2 me....
n the acidic lime explode....
n the person who was get a spalsh on the face....
would be minah n me....
i was so mad....
n i said things that i shouldn't said....
dugong is like shocked when she sees me that mad....
i never become so mad like that....
serve her right!!!!

the most embarrassing thing that happen 2 me was....
i fall infront of everyone when i was about 2 get un thee car....
WTH!!!!
qys is SO CLUMSY....
but its fun....
hehehe....

Drama Time!!!!

huhuhu....
its been a while since i write on this blog....
sorry....
i'm so busy with school n stuff like that....

well today....
there's a drama competition in my school....
me, miera, minah n adynn....
was in charge in managing the sound system n stuff....
we were running here n there in the school....
just to find a radio player....
the first radio player was burning....
there's smoke everywhere....
the second radio player....
the speaker is wreck....
the third one....
the CD player part was broken....
at last!!!!
the 4th one....
can be use perfectly....
Thank God!!!!

n then we rehearse....
well....
it went well 4 the class who do the preparation at the last minute....
it was ok....
at least we still gonna win....
cause there's only 3 classes that take part in that drama competition....
3 Kualiti surely will win the first place....
then 3 Optimis....
third n the last one would be my class....
3 Efektif....

Luqman Gelap....
he was acting weird....
he was close 2 dugong....
be friendly with her....
ask her 2 help him....
he even backing dugong when we were scolding her....
WOW!!!!
is there something going on between those 2????
no way!!!!
is he blind or something????
no right????

i'm a bitch.....

i've change so much....
since the last time i wrote on this blog....
i've become....
a mean....
stupid....
cruel....
and bad jerk....
i've become a bitch....

i kept on hurting people heart....
i say things that makes people mad....
and cry....
i wish for peoples suffer....
i wish not to see my friends anymore....
i cannot control my temper....
i don't care about my friends anymore....

what happen 2 me????
i've change to be....
some monster or something....
WTF!!!

Hahaha!!!! Silly me....

I've been acting so silly yet stupid this few days....
I don't know y....
but I kept following everything that danish ak.a my stupid neighbor....
ask me 2 do....
I go on a trip with him....
n we go swimming....
I almost drowned....
but I wasn't scared at all that time....
something inside me....
says that it'll be ok....
its like I know danish is going 2 save me....
n I wasn't scared of dying anymore....
not even a bit....
the only thing I can think about that time is....
I want everybody 2 be happy....
n remember me when i'm gone....
that's all....
but thank God i'm save....
hehehe....

few hours after that incident....
I go out on something so called 'date' with danish....
we go ice skating....
I didn't know how 2 skate....
so I made a fool of myself....
by trying 2 skate....
n fell everytime....
huhuhu....
it is lots of fun actually....
hahaha....
I guess danish isn't as bad as I though he was....
n embarrasing urself....
is quite fun....
u guys should try it sometimes....
peace ya!!!!

Hahaha!!!! Silly me....

I've been acting so silly yet stupid this few days....
I don't know y....
but I kept following everything that danish ak.a my stupid neighbor....
ask me 2 do....
I go on a trip with him....
n we go swimming....
I almost drowned....
but I wasn't scared at all that time....
something inside me....
says that it'll be ok....
its like I know danish is going 2 save me....
n I wasn't scared of dying anymore....
not even a bit....
the only thing I can think about that time is....
I want everybody 2 be happy....
n remember me when i'm gone....
that's all....
but thank God i'm save....
hehehe....

few hours after that incident....
I go out on something so called 'date' with danish....
we go ice skating....
I didn't know how 2 skate....
so I made a fool of myself....
by trying 2 skate....
n fell everytime....
huhuhu....
it is lots of fun actually....
hahaha....
I guess danish isn't as bad as I though he was....
n embarrasing urself....
is quite fun....
u guys should try it sometimes....
peace ya!!!!

Another day at school....

this is another ordinary day....
well....
as usual....
LATE FOR SCHOOL!!!!
this is all my dad's fault....
but i don't care anymore....

well...
as usual...
the first person i would saw is....
CFO....
WTF!!!!
i felt like crying everytime is saw him....
HUA!!!!

minah told me something today....
something about her....
that makes me worried sick!!!!
she said....
that the doctor suspect her....
been infacted my a disease....
named systemic lupus erythematusus....
it could cause death....
omo!!!!
i'm so worried....
i dont want to lose minah....
hua!!!!
God....
plz save minah....
plz....

Reality....

The reality of life....
i just realize it after i wake up from my sleep....
the things that hurt me the most....
is the things that i love the most....
that's the reality of life....

example....
i love walking in the rain....
but that is the thing that always makes me catch a cold....
i love reading in the dark....
but that thing will make me blind someday....
i love doing dangerous thing....
n that will get hurt every time i do it....
i love my friends....
but they r the one who hurts me the most....
i love CFO....
but he is the reason i cry every day n nite....

the second things i just realize...
is....
i always do things that people say don't do it....
that is the reality....
the more people say don't do it....
the more i will do it....

example....
my mom said....
don't eat ice cream b-4 u go off to bed....
but that's the thing i must do b-4 bead....
my dad said don't stay up watching the tv until morning....
but i always do that secretly....
my grandma said....
don't study at the last moment of exam....
but i do that all the time....
i said to myself....
don't fall 4 any guy that easily....
but that's what always happen....

the third reality that i realize 2day....
is....
we always hate the good things....
am i right????
yes i am....

example....
vegetables are good for my health....
but i hate eating it....
school is good for me....
but i always try to skip it....
studying is for the good of my future....
but i'm always to lazy to do it....
medicine is a cure for my sickness....
but i always throw it away....
n don't want 2 eat it....

so conclusion here....
the things we like....
isn't the things we should do....
the things we hate....
is the things we suppose 2 do....
and the people we love....
is also....
the people who thought us....
pain....
suffering....
n hate....
but hey....
if we always follow the rules....
n do the right thing....
life wont be fun....
my advice is....
keep doing what u want 2 do....
but don't overdue it....
cause u might end up....
hurting urself.....

I felt sad everytime i saw him today....

HUA!!!!
its getting so hard 4 me....
everyday....
when i walked in my school....
the first person i saw is....
CFO....

how can i forget him....
if i kept seeing his face....
the only way 4 me to not seeing his face is....
by not going 2 school....
heck!!!!
how many days must i skip school????
i can't do that....
i must go on with my life....

i can do it....
i can 4get about him....
i will 4get about him....
its just the matter of time....
huhuhu....
FIGHTING!!!!

SO REJECTED!!!!

its been a while since i write on my blog....
huhuhu....
welcome back QISTINA!!!!

well....
my life has turn up side down rite now....
this is all my fault actually....
serve me right....

i let CFO come in to my heart....
n then....
b-4 i could even tell him....
my true feelings towards him....
adynn told me that....
he already have a gf....
n his family support his relationship with that person....
kuang3....

i heard that....
CFO gf....
is a PERFECT girl....
surely she has everything that i wish i have....
she have everything that....
i will never have....
i feel so unperfect right now.....

even if CFO doesn't have a gf yet....
he will never accept me 2 be his gf....
cause we're like several universe different....
different races....
different religion....
different background....
i think....
the only thing that i have that same with him is....
we school at the same school....
that's all....

it doesn't matter anymore....
i just don't care about it....
maybe....
he just not meant 4 me....
i know one day i will find the right guy.....
that will love me just the way....
i love him....