Kisah semalam....

semlm x sempat aku nk tulis blog....
sibuk memikirkan banyak benda....
bgn jer semlm....
aku terus buat kerja umah....
n then on9....
benda yg paling menyakitkan terjd....
org yg slama ini aku anggap sbgi kwn baik....
langsung x hargai aku....
sakitnya hati....
x bermakna ker aku utk ko????
who am i 2 u????
mungkin aku ni hanya seorg yg x bermakna dlm hdp ko....
but its ok....
i understand all of this....
i can take it....

Hari ni aku tgk ah some survey pasal TVXQ....
i think....
xiah 2 mcm bangga diri....
nyampah gak....
tp aku still ske kat dier....
tp x sehebat aku ske kat u-know n micky....
they r the best!!!!
love TVXQ!!!!
well....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!

I'm a spoiled brat n I'm proud of it....

2day....
I'm glad 2 be the 'anak manja'....
i love being a spoiled brat....
hahaha!!!!
its fun....
papa ari ni asyik manjakan aku jerk....
papa panggil aku adik....
si pqa bengkek jer....
sbb dia patutnya dipanggil adik....
tp aku lak yg dpt....
hehehe.....

apa yg aku mintak ari ni....
sumernya dpt....
bestnya!!!!
kan bgs klu hari2 mcm ni....
no prob....
no sadness....
only happinest with my beloved papa n mama....
I LOVE MY PAWENT SO DAMN MUCH!!!!
well....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!

Sumernya ok kowt????

rsnya....
mulai skrg....
sumernya akan ok....
i just had a feeling....
that things will be just fine after this....

pg td aku bengkek jer....
sumer org pggl aku anak manja....
biar ah aku manja ngan mama papa....
nk jelez lak dorang ni....
walau pun aku anak sulong....
x bermakna aku x bleh manja ngan pawents aku....
ske ati akulah nk wat pe pun....
bodoh tul dorang tuh....

atuk ngan nenek gi cameron dgn adik2 aku yg lain....
so kat umah tinggallah aku,
adik aku yg kedua tu....
n pawents aku....
sumernya ok jer....
angin pun sentiasa bertiupan....
hehehe....

dkt facebook....
aku buallah ngan sorang peminat TVXQ ni....
dier cter ari 2....
24 nov 2008....
max kne pukul ngan beg tgn n kne maki....
dgn peminat hero....
cian dier....
nasib bek bkn u-know n micky aku yg kne....
klu dorang yg kne....
aku tanam hdp2 org tuh....
hehehe....
tp an....
poor max....
i understand how it feel when someone hit ur head....
i felt it b-4....
the moral of the story is....
always wear ur helmet at all time....
hahaha!!!!

well....
hidup TVXQ....
TVXQ the best boy band ever....
caiyok!!!!
fighting!!!!

Everything is gonna be ok now....

semuanya akan ok mulai skrg....
mcm mana aku tahu????
well....
someone told me....
my cable guy....
mmglah dia x dtg jumpa aku....
tp dia kirimkan semuanya mengunakan angin....
aku slalu mengaggap cable guy sbgi angin.....
yg sentiasa bertiup di sisi aku....
waktu aku sedih....
aku jerit pastu ckp....
is everything is going 2 be ok????
will u always be rite here next 2 me????
r u meant 4 me...
n suddenly....
angin bertiup dgn kencang....
aku tahu sumer akan jadi ok jer lps ni....
TVXQ hidup selamanya....
yeah!!!
well....
caiyok!!!!

Missing him....

huh....
i miss my cable guy so much....
it feel so hard....
wish i could call him....
n just tell him how i miss him....
but i can't do that....
i'll break my promise if i do that....
y do i even made that promise????
stupid me....
but well....
sumernya dh berlaku....
nasi dh jd bubur....
dh xleh nk wat pape agi....
yg penting aku kne truskan hdp.....

lg2 dlm album TVXQ yg bru tu sumer best....
yg plg best ialah mirotic, wrong number n don't say goodbye....
aku nk bg lg don't say goodbye 2 kat cable guy....
sesuai dgn apa yg aku nk ckp kat dier....
biar dia tahu betapa aku syg kan dier....
n betapa terseksa nyer aku bler kne lpekan dier....
well....
caiyok!!!!

Owh well....

What happen 2day????
hmm....
i'm missing my friends so damn much!!!!
oct plak pindah gi Kedah ari ni....
so sad....
feel like crying....
xder ah agi teman mengumpat waktu balik skolah.....

aku agak stress ari ni....
org sumer dh mle tekan aku....
thn dpn nak PMR....
blajar lah....
n what so ever....
argh!!!!
can't take it anymore....
i feel like going crazy....
n i want 2 scream out loud....
tell everyone how i'm stress out n how much i miss my cable guy....
owh well....
caiyok!!!!

Hish....!!!!

Sbnrnya ari ni sumer oklah....
cme an....
spupu aku tuh....
tah ah....
x tau camne nk ckp....
aku mmg ske kat dia....
tp....
prangai dia tuh....
asyik ingat lelaki jerk....
tah brapa banyak lelaki dia ske pun aku xtau....
pastu....
dia asyik bertenggek jer kat sblh aku....
rimas dowh....
apa yg aku ske....
sumer dia ske....
hish!!!!
aku x ske ah camni....
pe nk wat ek????
nk ckp ker ngan dia yg aku x ske prangai dia tu????
peningnya....

aku bual ngan my clown n ayam ari ni....
they r so funny....
aku ngan ayam biasa ah....
gaduh x habis2....
tp best gaduh ngan dia....
hehehe....
that's all 4 2 day....
caiyok!!!!

I'm back!!!!

i'm back!!!!
slama brape ari ni aku gi camp....
sbb tu x tulis blog....
camp yg aku di tu....
mmg camp yg plg %&$#& pernah aku gi....
mmg cam &$%#....
tak baik ah mencarut an....

sblm aku gi camp tu....
aku gi jln2 kat KL ngan cousin aku....
tp mmg x disangka-sangkakan....
aku jumpa kembar ayam....
iaitu itik....
terkejut aku bler tgk dia....
well....
its nice 2 meet him back....

hari pertama kat cmp....
its ok....
aku jumpa dak skolah aku....
azan n si buntal....
but suddenly that night....
when everyone is asleep....
i cary like a little baby....
missing my mom, dad....
my DA(BFF)....
my susu kering cap singa laut(BFF)....
TVXQ/DBSK the best boy band ever!!!!
but mostly....
i miss 4 my clown....
n cable guy....
b-coz b4 i went 2 camp....
they greet me first....
it was a shocking....
but i'm happy....

the second day at camp....
its like a hell....
aku sakit perut cam nk mati....
ntah pe aku mkn pun aku x tau ah....
tgh2 sakit perut tu, aku duduk kat tempat rehat....
mula2 dgn abg ustaz n abg macho....
diaorg layan aku dgn baik....
pastu abf doktor sampai....
so abg doktor ah jaga aku....
entah dr mana....
muncul lak doremon yg prasan comel tuh....
dier gi ckp aku berlakon sakit....
cam %$#@ jer dier tuh....
nasib bek abg doktor baik....
waktu aku hampir2 nk pengsan....
dia support badan aku dr blakang....
he is so sweet....

the third n the last day....
hari plg best skali sepanjang camp %$#@ itu berlangsung....
pagi2 ada Qiamullai....
pastu srpn pagi....
n after that ada jungle tracking....
it was really fun....
lps jungle tracking....
redah sungai lak....
bayak yg mandi sungai skali....
aku setakat basahkan kaki jerk sbb bj aku takut jarang....
skali spupu aku baling air....
so basah kuyup ah aku....
aku mrungut ah....
pastu tetiba abg doktor dtg tah dr mana tah n say....
abg pun basah....
aku ckp balik....
abg lelaki, sy prempuan, aurat ah....
abg doktor pun ckp blik....
meh pakai bj abg ni....
dier offer bj dia yang dh basah tu....
aku tolak....
xnk aku....

akhirnya aku sampai rumah....
home sweet home....
xder tempat yg lebih indah n selesa dr rumah sndr....
i'm waiting 4 mama n papa 2 come home....
cause i miss them so damn much!!!!
well....
caiyok!!!!

The sweet memories of the past....

today....
is one of the most hardest day i have to through....
sumernya ok mula2....
tiba2....
i heard TVXQ song "Proud'....
it reminds me of the sweet memories of the past....
memori indah antara aku dgn cable guy....
mungkin sumer memori ini....
hanya memori biasa buat dia....
tp ianya memori yg sgt berharga buat aku....
ianya lebih berharga dr nyawa aku sndr....
susahnya nk lupakn dia....
klu aku x prnh knl dgn dia....
hdp aku takkan jd bgtu sayu mcm ni....
mungkin aku xkn prnh lukakan hati my prince charming....
mungkin aku masih ceria n hepi sprti dulu....
tp klu aku x prnh knl cable guy....
aku xkn prnh tahu erti setia....
erti rindu....
erti pershbtn...
erti kasih syg....
mungkin juga aku xkn syg diri aku mcm skrg ni....
argh!!!!
sakit kepala fikir sumer ni....
maybe its time for me to take a vacation....
take a very long time to think....
in the same time....
calm my mind....
n think what's best for me....
well....
caiyok!!!!

penat seh....

dah brape lama aku tak tulis blog....
bru 2 hari....
sorry ah....
busy sikit....
buat kerja yang tak sepatutnya aku buat....
hehehe.....

hari ni aku penat....
penat kemas rumah....
duduk jer....
mesti mama panggil buat kerja....
argh!!!!
stress seh....
tp aku x kesah sgt....
dah terbiasa dah.....

dua hari ni aku tak tgk mke TVXQ kesygn aku....
rindu gler....
hehehe....
mcmlah dorang rindu kat aku....
knl pun tidak....
hehehe....
that's all for today....
well....
caiyok!!!!

So sad....

so sad....
i'm so damn sad....
sad about everything....
yang paling buat aku sedih bler Oct nak pindah....
argh!!!!
xder lagi teman aku mengumpat....
xder lg org akan teman aku waktu nk balik....
argh!!!!
i'm gonna miss u Oct....

lg satu yg buat aku cedih ialah....
sumer org asyik ckp aku bodoh....
bodoh sbb lpskn cable guy....
what am i suppose 2 do????
aku xnk jd org ketiga....
aku bhga asalkan dia bhga....

tpkan....
sumer benda asyik ingatkn aku pd cable guy....
tah brape banyak kali aku dgr nama dia....
sial tul!!!!
argh!!!!
aku cedih!!!!
knplah bler aku nk lupakan dia....
mesti sumer benda mengingatkan aku pd dia....
argh!!!!

well....
apa pun terjd....
i'm still have 2 smile....
caiyok!!!!

Never knew it could be so hard....

sebelum ini aku rs senang nk lpskn cable guy....
tp bler terpaksa ckp sendiri dgn dia....
its feel so hard....
aku xnk lpskn dia....
i don't want 2 walk away from his life....
but i have 2....
ini semua utk kebahagiaan dia....
aku hepi....
asalkan dia hepi....
mungkin aku bodoh sebab buat sumer ni utk dia....
tp aku x kisah....

cable guy asyik mintak alasan knp aku nk putuskn pshbtn kteorg....
aku x tau nk ckp pe....
aku buat sumer ni sbb aku nk cable guy bhga dgn 'dia'....
aku harap cable guy maafkn aku....
n aku harap dia faham knp aku buat semua ini utk dia....
aku harap dia tahu....
betapa aku sygkn dia....
but well....
aku tetap bhga dgn keputusan aku....
well....
caiyok!!!!

And the oscar goes 2.....

and the oscar goes to me....
yeyy!!!!
hari ni aku berlakon baek punya!!!!
sampaikan dugong tu bleh menagis meraung-raung.....
hahaha!!!!
aku berlakon konon-kononnya aku ni penyebab dia dan bf dia break up....
dan akulah gf baru bf dia tu....
menangis bagai nak rak si dugong tu....
aku tahan jer gelak....
lakonan aku memang berkesan....
hehehe....
jahat betul aku ni....

petang tu susu kering cap singa laut ajak aku jumpa pendek(bf dier)....
sekali bler nk jumpa tu ada lak tom kurus dan dugong....
jd x dpt jumpa ah....
terpaksalah aku gi jumpa pendek n ckp srry behalf of susu kering cap singa laut....

ayam pulak lawak gila hari ni....
dia ni memang rapat dengan aku dgn susu kering cap singa laut...
pandai dia ambik hati aku....
tapi sian dugong....
dia asyik jd mangsa kutukkan jer....
cian....

aku dengan tom kurus pun dah baik....
mcm kteorg x penah gaduh lak....
things r doing just fine...
nampaknya ada jugak hikmah aku lupakan cable guy....
well....
caiyok!!!!

Second day of a new life....

Argh!!!!
its so hard for me to 4get that cable guy....
i'm going insane here....
everything i do....
reminds me of him....
well....
maybe....
little by little....
i can 4get about him....
better late than never right....
well....
caiyok!!!!

A new brief of life....

wake up early in the morning today....
the sun shine brightly....
i never realize that sun shine is actually very beautiful n peaceful....
it feel so great....
finally i got 2 forget the past n through the future....
life is good....

after taking a bath....
i start to change my room....
i throw out everything that reminds me of that cable guy n detective connan.....
goodbye my past....
n hello my future....
my room actually look so great after i throw out all the memories that i kept all these years....
i should do that a long time ago....
but....
lets forget about it....

after i've change everything in my room....
i take a break n on9....
i'm quite tired actually....
but its worth the effort....
i feel so damn good....

GOODBYE ALL MY SAD PAST....
HELLO MY GREAT FUTURE....
SMILE ALWAYS....
NJOY UR LIFE!!!!