Frustrated.....

everyone in form 3 is having their trial....
n i'm not attending it....
b-coz of healt problem....
HUA!!!!
this is so frustrating!!!!
I want to cry!!!!
i've worked so hard 4 it....
but i can't attend it.....
what's the point of studying....
it is so unfair!!!!
i hate it....
hate it!!!!!

A Busy Week....

i'm so busy right now....
this whole week....
is full of studying n etc....
next week....
there's a big test....
damn!!!!
i hate test....
i'm sure i'll end up flunk every subject....
ok maybe not every subject....
but surely i flunk math....
i'm really suck at it....
but i'm really good at english and history....
fara said my head is always in the past....
that's why i'm good in history....
i don't care if my head is always at the past or etc....
the only thing i want is....
getting 8A in this little test....
n pmr....
i need to make sure i get more then that fucking asshole bitch, Farhanah Inani....
i need to work harder....

i wont think about the stupid things anymore....
no cfo....
no wcy....
no cable guy....
no nothing.....
its just me n my study....

one more thing....
amier already cut his hair....
he looks so much hotter now....
did i just said his hot????
ok, he is hot....
but not my type....

I can't even get up....

i wanted to cry....
i wanted to tell everybody about the pain that i've been through....
but i can't seem to let it out....
no matter how hard i tried....
i just can't....
i miss cable guy terribly right now...
its always so easy to pour all my sadness to him...
n he always seem to care....
n comfort me like nobody had ever done....
not even my parents make me felt so secured....
like he usually do....
i miss him so much...
until i got a fever right now....
i can't even get up....
its just to painful....
i cried on my bad....
i smiled in front of everyone....
i laughed at the most stupidest joke....
i ate the most unpleasant food....
i watched the most boring tv program....
n i didn't even cared about it....
because i miss him so much....
i don't even want to take my medicine....
it doesn't seems to cure my illness....
y....
y do u have to go cable guy????
i know i'm an idiot who loves u without any regrets....
i'm the idiot who always think of u....
even though i know u don't even cared about me....
i'm the idiot who never think twice about suffering for u....
i'm the idiot here....
but plz.....
make some time to notice this idiot girl right here....
plz....

My Destiny.....

my mood is all twisted this two days....
i don't smile....
i don't laugh....
i barely sleep....
n i just cried....
i miss cable guy so damn much!!!!
if he was here....
things probably went well now....
y????
y did he had to go????
what have i done until i deserve this kind of life????
i know i'm not a really good person....
but i'm not bad either....
but y bad things keep happening to me????
maybe its my destiny....
i have this bad luck....
because what i've done in the past....
i've hurt Rara....
i ignored Su....
i don't give so much attention on Diya....
i make my parents always so worried about me....
i make myself look like a super asshole jerk....
i forget about some of my long lost bestfriends....
i i don't give attention at all at Miera, Minah and Adynn, n Chah's feeling....
i make cable guy always felt miserable....
i make Danish broke up with his gf....
n the worst of all....
i hurt the perfect guy that i've ever know my whole life....
i hurt him because i was only thinking about myself....
i'm so selfish.....
i deserve all this sadness....
its my owh so dramatic destiny....
n i have to live with it....
MY DESTINY....

Another Qis Stupidness....

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
y am i that stupid????!!!!
i'm so so so stupid!!!!
well....
cfo come in 2 the class....
while the 4N (Me, Miera, Minah n Adynn) we're in class....
he smiled...
and said "yes".....
n my stupid body suddenly react....
i walked away fast from there....
living him blankly....
while my so called bestfriend....
laughed at me....
its just like when i saw abg trofi....
remember few months ago....
when abg trofi come 2 discusse about t-shirt n stuff....
i just walked away....
urgh!!!!
i always end up looking stupid....
i hate it!!!!
n i hate them saying i'm amier's girl....
I HATE IT!!!!
let me make it clear....
I HATE IT!!!!!!!
urgh!!!!
i wanted to change school....
so i don't have to see that bastard cfo face ever again....
but i wont see WCY 2....
owh....
fine!!!!
i'll stay.....
i have 2 be strong no matter what....
fighting qis!!!!

I'm The New Mrs. Wong!!!!

hahaha!!!!
i'm so prasan much!!!!
hehehe....
WCY is SO HOT!!!!
i'm still not over CFO....
but still there is a place for WCY in my heart.....
he's my hubby....
i love his height.....
i love his smile....
i love his face....
i love him....
ok maybe not love yet....
its only like....
but i believe one day....
i'll fall 4 him....
i am a person that easy 2 fall in love....
hehehe....
caiyok qis!!!!
fighting!!!!

my life is ok now....
things went on smoothly....
yup....
smoothly as in really really smooth.....
at school....
things r fine....
even though i've been really really hard 2 trying 2 avoid seeing cfo.....
but things went good.....
my study is ok now....

well.....
i have some prob with my dad....
n things like that....
but at least other things went smooth.....
even Danish is not that annoying anymore.....
he's going back 2 the student exchange program.....
good 4 him....
hahaha!!!!

2NE1 song in their new album is like super cool.....
i really enjoy all of their songs.....
check it out k.....
peace!!!!

I don't know why.....

2day....
could be the worst day i have ever had this whole year....
i know i shouldn't felt this way....
but i.....
i hate this....
i think cfo hate me....
yes....
i do thing so.....
he....
he kind off act so cold 2wards me....
i felt it when i was waiting for that fucking bus.....
he come out with his gf.....
n he gave me this discusted look.....
i was so shock....
and i tried not 2 cry....
but i guess i can't.....
its a good thing when i started 2 cried....
the bus come....
and i run towards it.....
and get the fucking hell out of there.....

serve me right.....
he should hate me before this....
so my life can go on easy way.....
if he do this a long time a go....
i wont feel this hurt.....
he should told me he hate me....
b-4 this.....
he should.....
b-coz rite now.....
i'm so totally in love with him.....
n i can't seem 2 hate him....
i can't....
i even love him more then cable guy.....

I'm so sick.....

right now....
i'm so so sick....
my stomach hurts so much.....
i can't even count how many time i have throw up.....
this is so painful....
i'm not going 2 school again.....
actually.....
right now....
i'm njoying school more then house....
but b-coz of my health problem....
i can't go to school....
SH*T!!!!
HUA!!!!
I want 2 go to school....
but i can't.....
owh well....
at least i could relaks a little bit....
and think about my life 4 a sec....
but i'm quite hating it.....
i want 2 see J & C.....
but its ok.....
there's always 2morrow....